don’t worry be happy
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i am happy.
everything seems to be pretty okay. I got my best friend back — and sure I feel as though I’m loosing another one - I guess the saying is true you can’t have the best of both world. & even though I said I wasn’t going to do the boys thing. I managed to find one that I am in a really big like and I feel as though everyday regardless if he comes over or sends a text message I feel as though I fall in more in like. Which read my text! L.I.K.E. I don’t wanna be afraid I just want things to flow. If it happens it happens if it doesn’t it doesn’t. Right? Its not the end of the world.
My number one reason though for confirming this isn’t just because all the list of reasons why I like him. Or how things started out and seem to be going. However, hes the 1st guy since snoopy that I’ve gotten butterflies in my tummy for. The first guy I honestly don’t think about only doing it to piss off Snoopy or to run away from Snoopy. The first guy who has tried to talk to me that doesn’t really seem too interested in just fucking. Its funny because I knew for a while that I was over him — but I had my jealous moments so I just wasn’t sure. But I got those feelings because he hurt me and hate how he told me one thing but basically contradicted himself by doing something I feel is wrong.
… And so I’m not going to let my past ruin the possibilities of me actually having something good in my future. I am just not. Plus my gut - my brain - deep inside - the voice i never listen to because I’m always too afraid to. Yes that voice tells me to just shut up and go for it because most things about him seem like impossible at the moment. I guess its just odd for me to actually find a guy who actually meet my likings …and I don’t have a 1000 reasons of why I don’t like him/ it will never work.
Guess we’ll see how shit flows…
3 years ago • Notes