here i am.
i am in love with tumblr.
therefore here i am :) i desperately felt the need to blog again. my blog is where i usually go to collect my thoughts — which seems strange because why would i feel most comfortable writing my business for all of the world to see? I don’t know. It can’t exactly be explained. All I know is lately — lately I’ve been in a good need of ranting. Pen & paper just doesn’t work as much anymore. Its sad to say — but these are new days baby. Days where pen and paper aren’t needed.
all I can even begin to say right now is I am scared. Its stupid to say this but I am scared of my feelings. Or rather I am scared to have feelings for anybody right now and it would be me the girl who is forever “liking” or not “liking” somebody — the one who swore off of boys as a new years resolution to actually run across a boy who seems to actually be some-what good. Yet, I’m too afraid to have feelings — to afraid to actually test it because that’s how I ended up at this point in the first place.
le-sigh.
i do have other stresses in life. believe it or not.
mm. not that i begin to think more — and write. I prefer my blog over my actual journal sometimes because here I actually feel like somebody is listening. Even when I know nobody more-than-likely-isn’t. Yet there is that possibility somebody is. O_o
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3 years ago • Notes